"I don't negotiate with insecurities."
KP Love Me - There were so many great album tracks off Prism.
Natalie Cole died today. So I put on the Natalie Cole station on Pandora and this is what came on first... I like the robots over there. A nice reminder that even in dark dark times it's a Wonderful World.
I feel like Vaguebooking, indulge me, no one is reading this blog anyway, so I can go OFF, right???
I don't get down with Holidays really and thus resolutions feel like complete poppycock to me... BUT after a funky end to a pretty fun, fresh and encouraging NYE filled with friends old and new, I do have a resolution. I will have Zero patience for messy drunks, no care taking, no more, ever again. I already quit that in my 20s, but I'm in a new place, with new people, with bad habits and I'm fragile, to say the least, (thanks 2015!) so it's too easy for me to slip up, forget what I know so well.
Past few months I gave two new friends the benefit of the doubt (a few times), old voice in my head saying "they are fun, messy can be fun, don't overthink it, ignore the warning signs, we are in our 40s, it can't go as south as it does in your 20s, can it?" It can, and it stings worse, because I KNOW BETTER.
And oh does it go South. And oh does it suck up your energy. So, resolution, back to identifying unhealthy situations EARLY and running in the other direction, no matter if it makes me 'the asshole' or not, self preservation is paramount, now more than ever, but really, always and forever from this day forth.